11:16 pm - Couldn't say it better if I tried... Eve Ensler, the American playwright, performer, feminist and activist best known for "The Vagina Monologues", wrote the following about Sarah Palin.
Drill, Drill, Drill (from Eve Ensler's blog) I am having Sarah Palin nightmares. I dreamt last night that she was a member of a club where they rode snowmobiles and wore the claws of drowned and starved polar bears around their necks. I have a particular thing for Polar Bears. Maybe it's their snowy whiteness or their bigness or the fact that they live in the arctic or that I have never seen one in person or touched one. Maybe it is the fact that they live so comfortably on ice. Whatever it is, I need the polar bears.
I don't like raging at women. I am a Feminist and have spent my life trying to build community, help empower women and stop violence against them. It is hard to write about Sarah Palin. This is why the Sarah Palin choice was all the more insidious and cynical. The people who made this choice count on the goodness and solidarity of Feminists.
But everything Sarah Palin believes in and practices is antithetical to Feminism which for me is part of one story -- connected to saving the earth, ending racism, empowering women, giving young girls options, opening our minds, deepening tolerance, and ending violence and war.
I believe that the McCain/Palin ticket is one of the most dangerous choices of my lifetime, and should this country chose those candidates the fall-out may be so great, the destruction so vast in so many areas that America may never recover. But what is equally disturbing is the impact that duo would have on the rest of the world. Unfortunately, this is not a joke. In my lifetime I have seen the clownish, the inept, the bizarre be elected to the presidency with regularity.
Sarah Palin does not believe in evolution. I take this as a metaphor. In her world and the world of Fundamentalists nothing changes or gets better or evolves. She does not believe in global warming. The melting of the arctic, the storms that are destroying our cities, the pollution and rise of cancers, are all part of God's plan. She is fighting to take the polar bears off the endangered species list. The earth, in Palin's view, is here to be taken and plundered. The wolves and the bears are here to be shot and plundered. The oil is here to be taken and plundered. Iraq is here to be taken and plundered. As she said herself of the Iraqi war, "It was a task from God."
Sarah Palin does not believe in abortion. She does not believe women who are raped and incested and ripped open against their will should have a right to determine whether they have their rapist's baby or not.
She obviously does not believe in sex education or birth control. I imagine her daughter was practicing abstinence and we know how many babies that makes.
Sarah Palin does not much believe in thinking. From what I gather she has tried to ban books from the library, has a tendency to dispense with people who think independently. She cannot tolerate an environment of ambiguity and difference. This is a woman who could and might very well be the next president of the United States. She would govern one of the most diverse populations on the earth.
Sarah believes in guns. She has her own custom Austrian hunting rifle. She has been known to kill 40 caribou at a clip. She has shot hundreds of wolves from the air.
Sarah believes in God. That is of course her right, her private right. But when God and Guns come together in the public sector, when war is declared in God's name, when the rights of women are denied in his name, that is the end of separation of church and state and the undoing of everything America has ever tried to be.
I write to my sisters. I write because I believe we hold this election in our hands. This vote is a vote that will determine the future not just of the U.S., but of the planet. It will determine whether we create policies to save the earth or make it forever uninhabitable for humans. It will determine whether we move towards dialogue and diplomacy in the world or whether we escalate violence through invasion, undermining and attack. It will determine whether we go for oil, strip mining, coal burning or invest our money in alternatives that will free us from dependency and destruction. It will determine if money gets spent on education and healthcare or whether we build more and more methods of killing. It will determine whether America is a free open tolerant society or a closed place of fear, fundamentalism and aggression.
If the Polar Bears don't move you to go and do everything in your power to get Obama elected then consider the chant that filled the hall after Palin spoke at the RNC, "Drill Drill Drill." I think of teeth when I think of drills. I think of rape. I think of destruction. I think of domination. I think of military exercises that force mindless repetition, emptying the brain of analysis, doubt, ambiguity or dissent. I think of pain.
Do we want a future of drilling? More holes in the ozone, in the floor of the sea, more holes in our thinking, in the trust between nations and peoples, more holes in the fabric of this precious thing we call life?
09:30 pm i dont get how ppl can not like kitty-cats! whats wrong with these ppl!! i've met two ppl on this shoot who hate cats and think they are "retarded" and "weird" and "evil." if i wasnt getting paid lots of $$ to work with them i'd prob smack them-- or at least tell them off. jeesh. i've decided only true intellects and sophisticates can really appreciate cats and all their magnificence.
watch me!!! i'm toward the end! and yes my part is small, it got cut down a bit...
then if you are my true friend you will click it, go to superdeluxe.coom, sign in and RATE IT. or you will embed it into your blog. and you will show it to your stoner friends and have them put it in their blogs and so forth.
12:32 pm - help aj win an iphone pleaseeeeee heyyyyy. so AJ entered this livejournal writing contest and became a finalist, which means he has a 1 in 4 chance of winning an iphone!! how cool is that? But...he needs YOUR help!
don't have a livejournal? signup for one for free at livejournal.com and then vote!! livejournal never spams and just cause you have an account doesn't mean you have to post, or get addicted, or anything. it only takes a few minutes,
SO...please help your dear friends win an iphone! thank you!!
12:42 am - okay i don't know who the first two are... 94% Dennis Kucinich 93% Mike Gravel 86% Barack Obama 85% John Edwards 83% Chris Dodd 82% Hillary Clinton 82% Joe Biden 77% Bill Richardson 34% Rudy Giuliani 23% Ron Paul 20% John McCain 18% Mitt Romney 17% Tom Tancredo 13% Mike Huckabee 6% Fred Thompson
05:17 pm i just found a "stray" kitten. i took her in and cared for her for like 15 minutes. but she turned about to be someone else's...i'm kinda sad. i was so excited there for those 15 minutes and now poof. shes gone. she felt like my kitty but she wasn't. i guess i did the right thing by turning her to her rightful owner. but it hurt... :(
03:15 pm - sailing sailing jumping off the railing do yourself a favor and watch this. toy-box is genius, maybe surpassing that of the fast food rockers. if you do not find this video HI-larious, and a bit catchy, well then there is no hope for you.
poor aj is sickie :( i dont want him to be sickie. i want our last day together to be funnnn. i wish someone could sleep at my house sat, i dont wanna be alone. i used to love being alone, like when my mom and al would go to palm springs and i'd have the whole place to myself. i loved it. now that i live with aj i hate being alone everything feels so empty, quiet, lonely. who will i talk to? who will snuggle me when i'm so cold? who will cuddle me in the morning and wake me up with a smile? who will make sure the scary darkness doesnt get me on my midnight pee run? no one. boo hoo. ok i know a friend couldnt fulfill these things but at least id have companionship. i just realized i havent had a sleepover since highschool. weird. who knows if i ever will again? soooo weird as bevis of 5 takes would say.
today i went to lunch w/ amanda and her family plus nico and his mom. it was quite a large group! haha then amanda and i went to bev center and checked out the new h&m and i like a sicko i spent way too much money, not good for someone who is going broke. it was really fun and i hope we hang out a lottttttt more this year. i used to worry me, liz and amanda had changed soo much or more that iwent away and i didnt change but they stayed here and changed without me. but now i see that yeah i guess to a point we all kinda changed but not really. our characters are the same, our intentions, the things that brought us together are still there. of course as people get older their likes, dislikes, hobbies whatevs change but all that is pretty superficial. i think the three of us really understand each other and thats whats important. and i trust them. sometimes it seems like i never left. anyways it was very fun and amanda gave me a gift basket full of goodies! i ate a cupcake tonight and it was sooooooooooooooooo good. mmm mmm mmm. like i said i really hope we see a lot of each other in the new year. i feel bad i only saw liz twice since ive been back. sometimes i hate myself for being such a homebody bore. i know i should force myself to go out more and make plans but i dont know why its hard. i feel so busy, and i was for awhile with the internships and all but sometimes i think im not that busy why dont i see more ppl. i've always been like that tho, even in high school there were many nights i opted to stay home instead of hitting the parties or hanging.
hey im supposed to be taking a shower. errrr oops tomorrow im going to chinois w/ my mom and the ladies. then to pick up my L.A.M.B. dress at fred segal. then...i dunno where? i have to buy flour so aj can bake me some gingerbread. god bless my little baker boyfriend. OOOH i wanna make gingerbread waffles soon that rach ray made. who wants some. i think i'll make em and freeze some to pop in the toaster at a later date. sooo yummy. i fricking love gingerbread.
i really need to open my new vacuum and use it, but...thaat doesnt sound fun. hahahaha
i'm a great cook, but not so good as a housekeeper. god i better be fricking successful cause as much as i love kids the stay at home mom kid will not be for me oneday. i mean i'd take care of the kid but the house would be such a mess! that was random. ok its shower time
wait i wrote this song to the titos tacos song tune. its gushy ignore it i love aj henning he's so cutie q i love aj henning what else can i do-o? hes so sweet and delicious i love him so much oo-oo-ooh the only thing better than aj henning is two the only thing better than aj henning is two
hahahahahaha sometimes i dream aj has an identical twin and if anything goes wrong w/ real aj i just go be with identical twin aj...i wonder what the hell that means???? Current Mood: silly
02:44 pm ok i just bough liz's bday/xmas present and amandas xmas present. liz really offered NO clues as to what she wanted so i am really hoping that she a)doesnt have what i got her and b) likes it. i hope amanda likes hers too. actually i made plans w/ amanda's mommy to see them thursday which should be fun!!!
aj needs to make me cookies! like...now!!!!! it hit me today that he is leaving friday. i am so sad. i have never been in our apt alone and i dont like us being apart. i had really wanted so badly to go to sb for xmas, but it seems pretty clear my grandpa is close to death and this will be his last xmas. and i do know its important to be w/ him but i wish i hadnt beeen guilted into it. but i guess it would be selfish of me to leave them alone? i dunno. its a mess. the worst is i thought it wouldn't be too bad, like i'd get to do mikey's and all if i stayed in LA w/ them. but mikey isnt doing xmas this year. and then i thought well i'll invite mitch, ange george and leo but turns out they are going to disneyland. so its just me al mom grandparents which i find quite lame. and xmas eve i will be alone. i can go w. my mom to some cousins house i've met two times in my life but that sounds soooooo dumb. i hate "family" aka the family u see 2 times in your life and are still supposed to consider family when really you are closer to your algebra teacher than you are to them. i mean really thats dumb. i dont wanna impose on angie's xmas eve w/ her family. so i'll be alone. im kinda sad. ajs been lecturing me to make the best of it. but id rather pout.
my dad wanted aj and me to go to TX in the first week of jan but now aj cant go and inm not sure i wanna go alone. im so stressed about school starting and just wanna relax. i still am trying to work my casting internship until my headshots are done printing so i can make sure they keep a copy on file. but i dunno if i can hold out much longer. i need to f-ing relax.
i wish everyday i could play w/ leo and laugh. he is an endless ball of joy and laughter. mmmmmmm...lame...its 3. howd it get soooo late??? i pissed my day away being cranky about xmas and fighting w/ aj about the whole thing. great. i really know how to enjoy a weekend. at least we made up tho and hes gonna make me cookies Current Mood: lonely
11:11 pm i've been pretty aloof about what i want for my bday, and by all means if you bought me something (or ahem, amanda, creating a beautious masterpiece for me--no pressure ;) ) then disregard this...but... i was thinking i could really use some kitchen stuff. like a few pyrex mixing bowls, a good whisk (mine is kinda cheap) and some serving platters/trays/bowls for food (which can be found for really cute and at really good prices at target)... also u know miss ray's 2 4 6 8 cookbook would still be much appreciated. and also i do have an amazon.com wishlist, but i think ajs family might be tearin that up. haha anyways...yess. sorry i hate asking for things! but i just realized since my grandparents have guilted me into staying in LA for xmas (leaving po' lil aj to go to sb alone) and i will most likely be cooking an entire xmas meal, i could really use some serving platters. and pyrex bowls for holiday cookie makin.... yeah sorry...
08:13 pm - another film festival my film just got into another film festival!!!!!!!!!!! its kinda weird tho because the festival has six locations around the world this year. so my film will show in -casa grande, arizona -eugene, oregon -two different alaska cities (anchorage, and juneau) -two different new zealand cities (wellington and gisborne)
the main prob here is that the only real networking location would be Wellington New Zealand (thats where peter jackson's studio is)... but the odds of getting the $ to go are low...a;sp the odds of finding a companion who also has $ to go are low. but i shall throw it out there anyways.
anyone wanna go to new zealand this dec? it'll be summer there....
08:32 pm - yo ho yo ho, no apartment for me its official. we lost the apartment. i'm homeless, ok, no, i'm a drama queen. but i'm apartmentless... :( and i'm not gonna be little leo's neighbor.
my mom said the apt was shitty tho... if that helps?? oh bother.
10:56 pm - maine got back from my maine trip yesterday. it was awesome.. so cute and pretty!!! we went to this beach town called York and its sooooo gorgeous. the beach was amazing, brilliant blue water, soft sand, rocks. sooo pretty. no words can describe. there was also a light house there that was total new england. the town of york was picturesque and totally cute. i gots me and aj some taffy there too. then we drove a LONG-ASS way to rockland for the lobster fest. on the way we drove thru lotsa cute little towns, including WISCASSETT my former roomie katie's hometown. (driving thru was totally unplanned). the lobster fest was like a smalllllllllllllllll, and i mean tiny, county fair minus the animals and plus a lobster/seafood tent. jackie and i each got a lobster and corn on the cob and we split steamers (a new england way of cooking clams) and it was a huge portion. it was sooooooooo delish. the only prob was that the lobster wasn't cracked AT ALL. and they don't give you crackers. you have to open it and get the meat out completely by hand. crazzzy and hard. but worth all the work. on the way home we also picked up some wild maine blueberries from a roadside stand. they are DELISH. soooo sweet. tonight aj and i even used some to make blueberry pancakes.
anyways weds is the last day of summer school. and sooooo much work must be done before then. after that its pacck pack pack for 6 days then back to LA. i actually am getting sad. i do like new england and i will miss it. but im looking forward to getting back home and moving to the next chapter. its all very bittersweet.
02:01 pm productive today. i didn't sleep in too late. i woke up and got ready and went to school and burned dvds, like i've been meaning to for about 4 weeks. i'm halfway through. i'll finish tuesday. i still have plenty of time before 5 to finish my comedy review thats due tomorrow. and at 5 i shall be off to the darkroom to print the last print for this assignment. i don't think he likes this particular set of mine, i don't blame him they arent my favs. but i don't hate them. i just hope i do a good job on the final.
i've been listening to muchos of cyndi lauper today. and abba too. i love these songs i need to listen to it more. to be honest i barely listen to music because when i'm alone i often am watching tv or doing hw and i can't concentrate and listen to music (cause i always need to sing along-- or attempt to), and AJ and i have extremely different tastes in music. its okay but i really like all my music and i don't enjoy it enough. when i drive again you better bet i'll be blasting my jams. hahaha okay well not blasting, but u know. Current Mood: good Current Music: cyndi lauper